First, he is healthy, and all grown up, and seems happy. Relief.
Second, he is still my baby, but he is SO BIG! And so smart, and so independent, and getting some wrinkles! It's a funny life, it keeps on going. Can't freeze it anywhere along the path. Would I want to? But back to big... when I hug him my ear is right there, at his heartbeat. That is what always gets me right there. Every mom remembers that first listen to her baby's heartbeat. The years compress with that hello hug, and that goodbye hug.